To be the perfect me.

Summary of my life during exams:

Its because I'm too busy/brain dead/tired doing this:


That I don't have time to do this:


and hence I am still far away from of my goal of looking like this:

But exams are ending next tuesday and I can finally finally go back to the east side and my plan for a make over can finally start. Excited, motivated and driven! LETS GOOOOO.

I've only been sleeping minimal number of hours each night so that I can fully utilize each minute. After every exam paper I feel like I should have slept instead since nothing I studied seems to be tested anyway.

I haven seen a few people in a while and I miss hanging out with them. I miss all the familiar faces I used to see in school every day or during the weekends. I miss Mang Hann, Wenqi and Johnson. I'm glad exams are coming to an end. I wouldn't be totally free, with my national event coming up, but nonetheless, a school work free Pearlie is a happy Pearlie.

The feeling of taking exams in uni is really different. You don't see people pausing to stop and think about the questions, or twirling their pens while day dreaming. People in uni, for NBS at least, seem to be able to think constantly and write at the same time. They seem to know every answer as if they knew the questions before hand. Are they super smart or is it just me?

I miss the times after exams where we all stood at the back of the hall to discuss our answers to get an assurance that we answered the questions correctly. Now, I just take my bag and leave because the assurance comes from not knowing the answer instead.

I'm not depressed nor emo, I'm just tired of feeling like I'm the only clueless one around.

I'm excited to reach my goal of becoming someone I'm satisfied with.