Terrified

A random mix of photos for a random mind.

2011-11-29T16:53:00.002+08:00

The smell of freedom.
Haven smelt that in weeks.
and I can't wait to go back to the east. I'M COMING HOME, COMING HOME~

Dental and shopping tmr.
I'm gonna fully utilize my holidays.
Party, shop, hanging out with friends, sns and sleep.

To be the perfect me.

2011-11-23T16:55:00.003+08:00

Summary of my life during exams:

Its because I'm too busy/brain dead/tired doing this:

That I don't have time to do this:

and hence I am still far away from of my goal of looking like this:

But exams are ending next tuesday and I can finally finally go back to the east side and my plan for a make over can finally start. Excited, motivated and driven! LETS GOOOOO.

I've only been sleeping minimal number of hours each night so that I can fully utilize each minute. After every exam paper I feel like I should have slept instead since nothing I studied seems to be tested anyway.

I haven seen a few people in a while and I miss hanging out with them. I miss all the familiar faces I used to see in school every day or during the weekends. I miss Mang Hann, Wenqi and Johnson. I'm glad exams are coming to an end. I wouldn't be totally free, with my national event coming up, but nonetheless, a school work free Pearlie is a happy Pearlie.

The feeling of taking exams in uni is really different. You don't see people pausing to stop and think about the questions, or twirling their pens while day dreaming. People in uni, for NBS at least, seem to be able to think constantly and write at the same time. They seem to know every answer as if they knew the questions before hand. Are they super smart or is it just me?

I miss the times after exams where we all stood at the back of the hall to discuss our answers to get an assurance that we answered the questions correctly. Now, I just take my bag and leave because the assurance comes from not knowing the answer instead.

I'm not depressed nor emo, I'm just tired of feeling like I'm the only clueless one around.

I'm excited to reach my goal of becoming someone I'm satisfied with.

2011-11-16T11:10:00.002+08:00

My favorite photo of sports day. I miss those days.

Was reading a few of my posts from the past and I realized how much we have changed. How much I have changed. How much things have changed.

I can't proudly say that I've changed for the better or have started my own charity foundation but I know I've become closer to who I truly am.

I don't bother pretending to be someone that everyone accepts.

Don't like me? go fuck yourself (:

Exams are starting and I'm not prepared. Haven felt like this since the start of JC.

Lets see how it goes shall we?

Love you all.

People of all sizes

2011-11-12T16:53:00.002+08:00

Thank god for multiple shots, otherwise posting up individual photos would be a chore.

Skyping with Gabriel yesterday was stress relieving, he makes me laugh with all his weird theories about life. Cant wait to meet up with him after exams.

I'm semi living in the meeting room now. Other than the hygiene level of this place, all is good. the company is good too.

Its a saturday today, and its the first saturday that i'm staying in school for no particular reason. School is quiet on weekends, either everyone has gone home or frantically cramming in their rooms.

We're reading someone's blog now and all secretly judging the person I'm sure. Oh well, This is life. People judge you all the time.

Tired is the new word.

2011-11-10T11:42:00.002+08:00

Things we do during class time, or rather just stats class. Reading the blogs of S19 girls reminded me that I needed to blog as well.

I think my current situation can be summarized by one word : SHAG.

I'm exhausted. Every night I try to sleep early by lying in bed but I end up thinking and worrying too much that my brain refuses to rest. I will only fall asleep 2 hours later. Should have stayed up instead.

Maybe I should try out my new plan to take afternoon naps instead and stay up late at night. Am in class now blogging after my presentation. Last presentation of this semester! :D

I'm not ready for exams at all. AT ALL. God save my poor soul.

okay gotta go, I need to pee.

2011-10-28T23:37:00.002+08:00

Its been ages since I last blogged. I would blame it on the lack of time, but I think I should be more bothered to make an effort to at least type a few words on this page everyday.

School has been good, school WORK on the other hand has been a bitch. I think it really makes a big difference in your attitude towards work if you like what you are doing.

To be honest, I'm terrified of changing course. I'm afraid of going to school and not knowing anyone. I'm afraid of making yet another wrong decision. I'm afraid of disappointing all the people who had hope in me.

I'm so sure that I will be motivated to study if I were to go to CBC. What if the course isn't what I expected? Would I end up like this again?

If you ask me now, what would i do if I went to CBC, i would say that I would study my ass off and be a chemist at a top pharmaceutical firm.

In Business? I have absolutely no idea what I'm gonna do.

Maybe people like me are born floaters. We float from one place to another, not knowing what we want in life. Reading my archives of my posts from my JC times, I really miss myself. I miss the times when I knew what I was gonna do when I get home from school everyday. I knew what to do when I woke up. I miss the times when I looked forward to going to classes to learn something new.

Met up with the boys at Starbucks a few weeks ago. Ah gosh, what will I do without them? At that time I was still contemplating about changing course but when Hafiz said " huh business? aren't you the science type of person?" I was more than convinced that my decision to change course was right.

I shall stop here before my post becomes filled with my nagging.

Its songs like these that gives me hope.

2011-09-07T19:06:00.002+08:00

My Co and I in the interview room waiting for the next interviewee to enter. Am extremely tired but grateful for having Lulu as my roomie. She wakes me up everyday for class regardless of whether she has morning classes or not.
WHAT WILL I DO WITHOUT HER?!

Life as a main commer is tiring and demanding. I think that its not the responsibility or the work load that is the most tiring, but instead the need and difficulty in balancing all aspects of my life. Friends, Family, studies and the job of co-chairing a national event.
I'm afraid of losing my friends, I'm afraid of losing the people I hold dearest to me.

WIll I be able to live up to the expectations?

2011-07-21T12:11:00.002+08:00

Bling braces!

Coughing like mad while typing this blog post. Didnt know overload of alcohol could give someone sore throat and cough. Received hall location today, online payment is annoying the crap out of me by not loading. Am still kinda upset that I didnt get an air conditioned room.
I know i know, I sound like a bimbo.

Gonna head out later for lunch and driving lessons.
I need to stop looking at forums and facebook photos of people at camp. Read Brightsparks just now and apparently NBS camp is one of the most popular camps in campus. Le Sigh, I am kinda dreading school now. I dont like the feeling of having to go through the whole " Hi my name is ___ and i like ___" process again.

I am gonna stop complaining and embrace life as it is. A new chapter of my life is about to begin and I will enjoy every aspect of it.

Shall enjoy my last two weekends in the east side thoroughly.

2011-07-11T15:45:00.002+08:00

I like this picture because I look skinny.

I dont know what I want in life. Hell, I dont even know what to write in this blog post. Why is it so hard for me to make up my mind about things?
If me not making a decision doesnt affect anyone but me then its fine. But its not.
I honestly dont know what I am doing and I am sorry for everything.
I really am.

Queens of the Road

2011-07-05T13:37:00.001+08:00

Hello everybaaaady!

I really have nothing to blog about considering the fact that I've been home a lot. Trying to save money. Haha

My puzzle group is coming over tonight. Puzzle group sounds like those sewing classes that older people do in the community centers. Haha. Well actually luyen and Wenqi are coming over to complete our Disney puzzle.

I've been trying to order pastamania but apparently the outlet that delivers my food isn't ready. I'm starving.

And oh! I decided to join Adidas King of the road marathon. It's about 16km? Am not aiming to complete within a certain timing, I just wanna complete it. How Mang Hann completed his 10km in 48 mins baffles me. Maybe being skinny allows you to run faster.

We are planning to cook this Sunday! Let's hope the electric stove works perfectly fine. And I wanna do pull ups again! I don't want flabby bye bye arms ):

Slow Days.

2011-07-03T20:37:00.002+08:00

I like how I can run so many errands and do so many things without having to work.
Of course getting fatter comes along with such great amounts of slacking.

Have been drinking and hanging out with friends. Great Eastern was good, slowed down when I was near the platform to watch the POP. Wish I was at the stand once more.
Smelly boys on the train home.

Busy day tmr, got to make up my mind which activity to go to.

Blue eyes

2011-06-28T18:08:00.001+08:00

Some photos from last week.

Why are my eyes so small?

2011-06-23T10:14:00.002+08:00

A random mixture of photos.

My colleagues are all so cute.

Nights out with Alan and his friends are pretty entertaining. Drinking and laughing at drunk people in tranny land and watching Laddaland with them.

Laddaland was pretty freaky, worse than Incidious. Alan and Fela's reactions were pretty amusing and I am so sorry to Hafiz Z, for clawing his arm.

Work officially ends tmr, I cannot wait to wake up late and hang out more with everyone. Got to enjoy life while I can.

And sometimes I wonder if we would still be able to continue to be friends when I start school. I will be so far away, and if I dont bother initiating meet ups etc, will you?

7 long years.

2011-06-20T14:35:00.002+08:00

I want to copy paste a blog post Wenqi wrote to me on her tumblr.
Along with the post she also added a picture of me showing my large arms and of course I wont be posting the picture here.
Hence..

< Insert chio picture of me here>
"My best friend of 7 years at the Pink Dot Day 2011 with me. For a person who detests pussy, she’s the most surprising best best best friend any lesbian can get. Thanks for coming down today Pearlie, it means a lot to me. I love you! ~~(Even though you abuse me 24/7)~~"

The last sentence is striked off because I do not lie.

2011-06-20T09:57:00.002+08:00

Pink dot day, late nights staying out, hanging out with the same idiotic people, drinking and getting high.

As once said by a person close to my heart, " This is life".

2011-06-17T09:56:00.001+08:00

My blue hair is no longer blue, gonna get something done about that.

Work has been a breeze.

Looking forward to Pink Dot day tmr and drinking.

Things I do at work

2011-06-11T11:20:00.001+08:00

I need to blog more often. But that really depends on whether I have stuff to blog about.
Gen.A said that my life seems to be filled with working and running only. I guess with work, I dont have much time to complete anything else.

Impromptu outing after work and driving on Wednesday. Met luyen and Wenqi at tampines to watch XMen. I've never watched the rest of the series but I wasn't that lost. And I really liked it.
I love impromptu outings and feeling busy.

Took half day on Thursday to go back to tpjc to collect sgc for Jeremy and accompanied luyen for her BTT. We wanted to eat canteen food but it was closed ):

Friday was spent with Wenqi at the food court and window shopping.
Free hotel stay tonight!

Its been a long time since I've felt so good about myself.

2011-05-29T14:39:00.004+08:00

Met up with S19 girls on friday at 313 for dinner. It was good to see them after so long. I'm so proud that each of us survived one of the hardest periods of our lives and have gotten where we are today.
I'm so proud and happy to be part of your journey in accomplishing your goals.
Everyone looked good and was having fun in whatever they do currently. Hanging out with them reminds me of the times we spent slacking in the canteen, chatting about nothing and just enjoying each others company.
Gen is right, I wouldnt choose another group of people to spend my jc years with.
i love you all!

Sundown Marathon 2011 was held on Saturday. Accompanied cow to see the doctor and had swensons for lunch. Cabbed to the ulu race place with Sam, Em and Wenqi.
So proud of myself for completing the whole 10km without walking!! :D
Its been long since I felt good about myself.

I knew at the end of the race, I desperately wished that someone was there just for me.

Recap for the Short term memory me

2011-05-24T13:04:00.001+08:00

To be honest I dont really remember what I did.
Lets see..

1) Tried a new running route with Luyen on Wed
2) Had HK cafe for dinner with Luyen and Manghann and I got made fun of horribly
3) Kayaking with Felicia on Sat and Sun and we passed our one star!
4) Watched Pirates with REC Jeremy Tan and PTE Alan Ang and Felicia! Had Pepper Lunch and tau huay.
5) Kayaking then dinner with Alan and Jerm and sending the both of them in as usual. Alan and I still didnt manage to see Jeremy's Buddy ):
6) I am seriously sunburnt and I have a long sleeve tan line.
7) I ate many cheese cubes.

I cant wait for my contract to end so I can sleep late and wake up late and of course, hang out with my girls.

Sundown on Sat.
I'm screwed.

Bumblebeee

2011-05-17T12:37:00.004+08:00

I'm indeed too lazy to arrange the photos in order of who i met and went out with first but this are all proof of my busy weekend.
Half day from work on fri to go to the clinic with shu juan then proceed to far east to shop and got my hair (half of my hair) braided.
Sat with Luyen at chinatown and the flyer for a packed and messy flea. And of course, luyen and her new short hair.
Cable car and acting like a tourist with manghann to end the day.

I need to start exercising more.

Run with the power of a man but with the grace of a goddess.

2011-05-08T13:54:00.001+08:00

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Went drinking on Friday night at Siglap with mh and Wenqi.
And Nike Goddess Run was on the next day. Saw quite a few familiar faces, netball juniors, 10S13 girls and a few others. Was overall a good run.
The starting was pretty chaotic though, with people pushing and all.
Didn't eat before the run and started having gastric after the first 200m. The 100Plus at the water points helped a little bit.
Am going to eat before my next run.

Felt slightly accomplished after the run. They gave every girl a flower and a finisher's trophy! I think I join marathons for the tees and gifts. HAHA.

During the whole run I was just thinking 'fuck how to survive 10km' haha.

I just wanna run the whole 10km without stopping. Well two upcoming marathons for me to make that come true.

2011-05-06T17:56:00.001+08:00

Hello fela, I miss you too!

2011-05-06T14:12:00.001+08:00

I like peace, I dont wanna fight for I still see you as my friend.

2011-05-06T10:12:00.003+08:00

You keep saying that you have been trying to be what people want you to be, that you've been controlling your true self in front of people and that its time you be yourself.

I'm lost. No one told you to behave a certain way in front of anyone. I always thought that you should always be yourself in front of people, especially those you deem to be your friends.
So what is your true self actually?
I'm confused.

2011-05-06T08:20:00.001+08:00

I don't know whether to post up a long blog post I typed because i don't know if you would take it the right way.

I think not.

2011-05-03T17:01:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I sit down and think about the importance and impact that everyone I know has on my life. Can I survive and be happy without these people in my life?

Or will I be happier?

I know there are a few I simply can live without and a few I will die without. And then there are some that jump alternatively from the two groups. Maybe I shouldnt expect too much from people.

Sometimes being your friend can be very tiring and disappointing. Disappointed that you have so much potential in you yet you refuse to see it and do anything good with it.

I'm really happy now, I have fun at work ( other than waking up early ), I get to do fun activities in the weekends like ice skating.
Oh about that, I had a great time skating with Mabs, Gen and Jerm.

Going out with my other friends have reminded me of how simple and real people can be. I dont have to constantly worry whether that happy face is actually a facade.

Its been a long time and I decided to stop caring. I'm sorry but I think I did my best and now I'm giving up on you.

2011-04-21T17:39:00.002+08:00

I haven been blogging as often as I should huh.
I guess I have nothing to blog about?
I dont deal with customers at work so theres no funny stories to blog about.

Have been spending my time at work reading stories online. My eyes are starting to hurt after a long day of reading.
Ah then there is the daily tea break at 430. These two days of tea break have been eventful though with rides on the buggie with Kexin, Luyen and Wenqi.
Buggie broke down on the first day and we spent our energy pushing it up the slope.

Good times good times.

Sometimes I have so much in me that I want to express but I feel so..exposed if I were to blog it. I dont know whos reading my blog and how they will react to each of my posts. I rather keep it in or tell people I trust.

P for Pearlie and Pink

2011-04-13T09:36:00.002+08:00

I think I like pink more than i know.

Rainbow!

2011-04-13T09:36:00.001+08:00

Success!

2011-04-07T09:46:00.002+08:00

Here’s a funny fact. Join your two hands as shown above. Let’s start : The thumb represents your parents. Now try seperating them apart, and they’ll easily open. They easily seperate because you are not destined to live with your parents forever. Now join the two thumbs back together. Next, separate your index fingers and they will open too because these fingers represent your siblings, and they’ll also lead their own lives in the future. The middle fingers represent yourself. Next separate your pinky(little) fingers. These fingers with open as well because, they represent your kids, who will also have a different life from yours, eventually. Lastly, try opening your ring fingers. You can’t right, this is because the ring finger represents both you & your spouse & no matter what you’ll remain together for the rest of your life.

2011-04-06T09:07:00.002+08:00

I would go overseas alone and study in an Ivy League University and live on my own, working to pay for bills. I think knowing that you would not fail really pushes people to try things they never would.

Oh, I would also ask Ian Somerhalder, Gale Harold and Chuck Bass to be my husbands.

2011-04-05T15:54:00.001+08:00

Looking at beautiful pictures at work now. Looking at it always give me the same feeling. The feeling of wanting more. I would always look at a picture and secretly say " I wish i was/had". I guess we will never stop seeking for perfection.

7RON

2011-04-05T13:07:00.000+08:00

I want!
But currently these watches are not in production. Daaaaamn.

Caves.

2011-04-05T09:24:00.000+08:00

TOTALLY.

Rainbows and Unicorns

2011-04-04T09:37:00.002+08:00

I wanna bake this!
Theres only one problem. I dont like eating cake, I just like baking it. SO WHO TO FINISH IT?!
Maybe I should make a tiny sized one which I can force my fellow bakers to eat it. Kexin says she'll eat it!

The reason

2011-04-03T20:32:00.003+08:00

I am more afraid of being aimless and not knowing what to do than anything else in the world.

I dont talk much at home because I cant be bothered. After all, you will always insist that you are right, so why bother saying anything that might start a fight?
I hate being home with you.

I hate that you think yelling solves the problem. I hate the way you talk to people and the words you choose when scolding someone. I hate that you think you are so much better than other people.

Scolding me useless and blackmailing me emotionally by asking "Are you daughter?" doesnt work mum. I'm not 5 anymore.

I dont understand why saying " I'm sorry " will kill you and only your daughters must apologise.

There are simply too many things I dont agree or dislike about you.
But hey, who am I to say it right?

After all, I dont earn as much as you and am useless. Oh and it will also be very rude of me.

Thank god that I have my friends around me.

I am more afraid of ____ than anything else in the world.

2011-03-30T12:48:00.003+08:00

Got this from Gen's blog.

This is me in a project that my friend Alethea did, its a beautiful project that goes "I am more afraid of _______ than anything else in the world." & you can find the tumblr here.http://iammoreafraidof.tumblr.com/

I like this project, it helps people to admit their fears. It got me thinking, what am I afraid of.

I'll post mine in the next blog post.

2011-03-22T14:52:00.002+08:00

Some of the many photos me and Shujuan took during office time when we were free. Gosh I miss those days when I was too free. Now with the results out and all, super busy and I am exhaustedddddddd.

Our products from Sunday's baking. TASTED AWESOME.
I shall source for more stuff to try baking and cooking. Was planning to grill steak and all and make a proper dinner. Should try eh?
Cooking and rushing down to Pasir ris interchange to deliver the cupcakes totally used up all our energy. Slept soundly and didnt want to wake up to go to work.

Swimming later?

Love at its finest

2011-03-16T10:00:00.006+08:00

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

This two videos are on repeat. This is true love, love at its finest. So touched by his story and the words in his songs. How many people can do that? To stand by the one person you claim to love for life in sickness and in health, for better and for worse?

Kudos and salute to you Chris.

2011-03-15T22:24:00.001+08:00

Zombie-fied

2011-03-14T10:44:00.001+08:00

I feel like a zombie. Coughing and sniffing like mad. I swear that I can cough my lungs out.

I don't feel like moving, I don't feel like doing anything except sleeping. Tuition tonight, driving tmr and tuition again on Wednesday. I like my empty Thursday and Friday. The usual me would be rushing to plan activities to fill up the empty after work evenings but I think I shall leave it empty this week. (provided I haven promised anyone an outing) I don't remember having anything on this weekend as well..

Had fever yesterday. Total flashback. The last time I had a fever was the night before physics paper. I guess every rare occasion that I'm seriously ill is my body crying out to me that I need to rest.

Rest I shall get then.

Motivation-less

2011-03-09T19:29:00.001+08:00

Really haven had the motivation to blog. I feel like there's nothing for me to blog about. I mean how much can I write about when my only form of life is after work!

My piercing hurts once in a while. I'm trying very hard to not be a klutz and be really careful when I walk so I don't end up hitting my tummy.
I miss exercising and swimming.

I need to cut down on cold drinks. Am coughing quite badly. Oh as I say this, I have a big carton of cold barley beside me. Fail pearlie, fail.

Wiggle.

2011-03-07T20:51:00.001+08:00

I pierced my naval! :D

D-Day

2011-03-03T07:43:00.001+08:00

Going to work helps to ease my mind of the worry. Helping to give out the exam booklets to the students, joking around with my colleagues can actually help me forget that judgment day is arriving.

12 years worth of time and money, it all boils down to Tmr. My mind is filled with so many what ifs and what to do. I wished my mum was more open to the idea of me going overseas to study now.
Then I wouldn't be worrying so badly
right?

I can just imagine how it would feel like in the hall Tmr. Everyone having sweaty cold hands, hearts beating really fast and all looking at the screen with eager eyes to see if their names are the few lucky ones to be flashed.

Then we'll all wait for the CTs to slowly talk about their own classes. And then you get that slip of paper.

That slip of paper that determines where you go, what you are gonna be and your next step.

I'm lost. I don't know what I want to do. I don't know what's my next step. Let's hope my results broaden my options and not limit me.

Swollen eye

2011-02-28T19:28:00.001+08:00

Blogging now while waiting for my tution kid to finish the question.

Represented dad yesterday at a wedding of some distant relative. Wasn't that bad, they served good food. My relatives invited overseas business delegates to attend the wedding and booked 45 rooms in pan pacific for them. $$$ or what!

I am very very tired and my right eye area is swollen. It hurts when I blink. My shoulders and back hurt.

Friday doesn't exist.

2011-02-26T11:52:00.001+08:00

My mum can be so ridiculous and unreasonable.

A brand new start.

2011-02-22T09:01:00.002+08:00

I chopped my hair off.
Like literally. Haven had short hair since i was 12 and now i can feel the breeze on my neck. heh.
Only after I cut my hair then i realised that there were so many girls with long hair!

I've always been envious of people, wishing that I had that person's hair, that person's eyes etc. I was never really satisfied with myself for more than one day. Pathetic eh. But cutting my hair somehow seem to have cut away part of my self-condemning soul. I am somehow more confident now? I dont know how that makes sense to you but it does to me.
Cutting my hair has made me bolder and I will try almost anything now.

Work has been busy with the poly exams coming up. Yesterday was pretty much retarded with the new policy that since I had friends in TP i wont be allowed in the exam room to do packing. PACKING ONLY. I dont even get to see the damn question papers! I had to declare who my friends in TP were. I only stated Nicole's name though. Not being able to go into the exam printing room reduces my work load. I shouldnt be complaining right? I just think that the reason behind it is ridiculous.

I like my new haircut.
I wonder if my dearest boyf will forgo his love for girls with long hair and accept mine.
If not...
I should be glad that I locked him down before i cut my hair!

Take care lovelies.

Gale.

2011-02-18T11:01:00.001+08:00

Everyone, meet my baby.

I love Gale Harold.
I love Gale Harold.
I love Gale Harold.
I love Gale Harold.
I love Gale Harold.
times a million times.

I am gonna download the horror movie that he acted in in 2010 and beg Boyf to watch it with me because I have no balls to watch horror movies on my own alone at home.
I am spamming blogger because I am bored and a bimbo,

I am gay-fanatic.

2011-02-18T10:51:00.000+08:00

“I don’t believe in love. I believe in fucking. It’s honest, it’s efficient. You get in and out with the maximum of pleasure and minimum of bullshit. Love is something that straight people tell themselves they’re in, so they can get laid. And they end up hurting each other, because it was all based on lies to begin with. If that’s what you want, then go find yourself a pretty little girl… and get married.”
— Brian Kinney

Gosh, wish i was a guy and gay.

I cant help if my bones are heavy right!

2011-02-18T10:38:00.002+08:00

Saw this picture in Samantha's tumblr.
Nice :D I like bling.

Nothing really interesting, just work and meet ups with friends for dinner after work and my daily dose of army phone call.

Its really really upsetting and disturbing how skinny Boyf is gonna be when he comes from army. I guess I'll always be the "fat girlfriend".

I love Gay men.

2011-02-16T11:59:00.001+08:00

My other two fave men.
I have a list of my fave men/boys and the list is reallllly long.

2011-02-16T11:18:00.002+08:00

I WANNA GOOOO.
I decided. My honeymoon shall be like 6 months and i shall travel around the world.
OR
A holiday every year.

And oh, I wanna go to USS to sit the Galaxy roller coaster. I'm sorry B, YOU GOT TO SIT WITH ME. TOO BAD.

Valentine's day

2011-02-15T09:02:00.001+08:00

Valentine's day was fine I guess. It was only when I went to tm alone and saw couples everywhere then I felt out of place and alone. Maybe it was envy I felt.

Thank you sam for buying me such a pretty present. I love it (:

Phone call from the army made my day complete (plus koi). It was simply great to know he cares for me even though he's dead tired from training.

One word to describe how I feel now. FABULOUS.

Time flies when you are happy.

2011-02-12T12:42:00.001+08:00

GeoTagged, [N1.35355, W103.94845]

This week has been a good week, despite the tiny annoying incidents. But still I'm very satisfied with my life. Appreciating every small detail really helps.

I look forward going to work everyday because of my colleagues. They are superbly cool. Haha now our whole office is hooked on the macha sweet!

Took off yesterday and met Kexin and Gina to take Btt. Caught 'The Rite' with Gina afterwards. Movie wasn't as horrifying or scary we wanted it to be. And the row we sat in had drifts of smelly old socks smell.
I like watching horror movies with Gina, we jump at the same time. Haha.

I stay up every night, waiting for that one phone call or SMS to ensure me that everything is okay, to tell me that he's doing okay and I need not worry.

I like how army is changing you (:

Being alone.

2011-02-10T08:41:00.001+08:00

I think I was born a loner. I like doing things alone. Oh but I never did find the guts to eat alone unless I had a book with me.

Lonely. I guess we all feel lonely after awhile. Hence the need for us to find companion. I don't really know what I'm trying to say actually. But I think that sometimes being alone isn't as bad as it sounds like. Being alone doesn't mean being lonely. Just like what hafiz.z told me. It's just being indifferent to certain emotions so that you'll almost always be happy.

Sometimes being with someone ends up making you feel more confused and tired. You end up feeling tied down and wished that you could be alone. So why not wait for the right one to come? So what if it takes a lifetime of waiting. I think waiting for the right one is better than going through all the wrong ones.

Enlistment was yesterday. I feel.. Surprisingly normal. A bit lost initially because I know I can no longer just mms Boyf to show him my loot or call to just tell him I'm gonna get high and drunk or say stupid things. But I have all my lovely friends (:

Sometimes I feel like jumping on my BFF and smack her to tell her to not be so soft hearted. But I still love you you know right? :D

2011-02-08T11:49:00.000+08:00

Somehow online shopping during work seems more effective than at home during leisure time. Maybe i can find and source for better goodies under the stress of the big boss peeking at my computer.

For honor and glory

2011-02-07T20:37:00.001+08:00

My boyf is probably one of the most unfit recruits entering the army. And he just told me that the army doesn't give a shit unless you literally collapse. Shit now I'm worried, very worried.

Woke up this morning to declare my laptop dead. Sent it for repair and then had koi. Hung out with the boyf at the club house until my mum left the house. Watched a little supernatural and went to beach road to buy some army stuff. Cool experience even though it was a short one. Every guy that went there were new recruits buying stuff with their anxious mummys. Boyf was the only one there with a very anxious girlfriend.

Had marche for dinner and we ate still we felt like we were gonna burst. For once I'm glad to be standing on the train all the way home.

Even though I have faith that the boyf's fitness will improve in no time and that he will be as fit as a fiddle, a part of me is still worried as hell.

I think I worry more than his mum. Gosh.
And every girl gets to see their army Boyf after the two weeks but I only get to see mine after three weeks. Damn.

To all my army boys, take care of Yourselves. I'll miss you guys.

And shumei is right, enlistment date came too fast.

2011-02-02T23:50:00.002+08:00

I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO ANGRY BEFORE. WTFFFFFFFFF. WHERE IS JEREMY!!!!!!
okay imma go call jeremy to update him.

I wanna teleport.

2011-02-02T22:42:00.001+08:00

I don't know what to say anymore.

My boyfriend.

2011-02-01T17:01:00.001+08:00

My boyfriend may annoy me sometimes but I'm glad that he's not fickle minded. When he decides on something, he sticks to it and seldom or never sits on the fence when it comes to certain important decisions. Just thought of this after reading some stuff and thinking through stuff.

Unlike person T.

We were angry at each other but all have passed. There is presence of slight tension but I'm sure it'll all pass when we meet up.
I miss you and your frowning face.

I'm hurting inside.

2011-01-31T22:21:00.002+08:00

"The deepest principle in human nature is the craving to be appreciated.”

After typing out the whole chunk of shit, i decided to press control-a and delete everything.
I should learn to not give a shit since you clearly dont give a shit.

2011-01-31T21:43:00.003+08:00

Is there a way to just lock certain posts?

The boys entering army seems so real.

2011-01-31T00:40:00.001+08:00

Celebrated alan's farewell today. Had a BBQ at Felicia's house after buying all the stuff at nex. We are probably the only successful BBQ in spore today under this continuous shower.
Sambal prawns was in the spotlight as usual.

Drank my first gin today. Gin and lemonade, a pretty good mix I must say.
Hmm I guess great company, great food and a lot of karaoke practically described this whole gathering.

It feels so real to hear your close friends say that their enlisting 'next monday' instead of saying the date like it's still a long way to go.

Things between us has cleared up slightly and I can't wait to see B again to feel assured and secure and hopeful and loved.

Ten months on cny. Auspicious date!

I just found out that army guys can only come out in the third week of army, that weekend. Not the second weekend.

Someone shoot me please.

I'm going nuts.

2011-01-28T21:43:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling terrible now, sitting down and wondering what went wrong and what I did wrong. I dont like cold wars, I dont like being in a cold war not knowing the cause of it. Shouldnt I be allowed to know?

Spent the whole day in office stoning and wondering when I will get a reply from you, telling me whats wrong or maybe ease my poor soul by telling me that your phone ran out of battery.
But no.

Is tmr going to be another day like this? I dont know how much longer I can take this. Being ignored is not a very good thing for paranoid people, especially emotional paranoid people like me.

Thanks to wenqi and sam who came all the way to pass me B&J ice cream that they bought. Sorry if I wasnt very responsive, really wasnt in the mood.

I gonna stop typing and try to stop thinking and try not to cry.

2 more weeks.

2011-01-27T19:02:00.001+08:00

Work has been really fattening with my colleagues feeding me every two hours. I can't imagine what it's gonna be like after Chinese new year when everyone wants to clear their goodies.

I am very pissed right not because Cathay website lied. I was looking forward to watching burlesque again but it turns out that downtown east doesn't have burlesque anymore. I am going to burst.

My mind is like a machine.

2011-01-24T18:18:00.001+08:00

On my way after work to emergency cny shopping. If not i'll have to go visiting wearing last year's clothes.

Work was good, I literally got paid doing nothing. Spent my entire day reading fiction online. My eyeballs feel like their on fire and I'm squinting like >< this. I can just imagine the condition of my eyesight after I stop work.
I need to be less vain and wear specs to work. Does it help? I think it does right since my specs has all that extra protective nonsense.

You are like someone that can feel 5 emotions at once. Seriously. How can you say one thing and feel the other and do yet another?! I don't know whether to applaud you, laugh or be disgusted.
But then again it's your life, do whatever you want.

I'll just think through all my words and actions a little more throughly so I won't end up being like you.

2011-01-23T22:22:00.002+08:00

I wanted to post the pictures from Wenqi's birthday but somehow Facebook refuses to load. Maybe i have too many tabs open or my comp is dying from exhaustion from being used the entire day.

Ohwell.
Talked to Hafiz Z all the way home on Sat and I liked it a lot. Asked him all the weird random questions I always think of before I fall asleep. It was interesting to hear what he had to say. I cant wait to hang out with the rest of the gang soon.

So many things happen everyday but none that I can blog about. Isnt it funny? Blogging is supposed to be about you recounting everything that happens and yet I cant do so. Probably because the things that happen are meant to be a secret or because I dont wanna type it out and be reminded of things again.

I wanna be a guy, to be less emotional and feely. I wanna be ignorant to everything.
Wouldnt it be easier?

I wish I could sing.

2011-01-21T22:41:00.002+08:00

Watched Burlesque with Raina after work today. SUPERB! I wanna watch it again and again. Watching it with Luyen on tues! I really wish I could sing.

Going out tmr to buy cny clothes, if I have the energy maybe I'll put a little more effort into dressing up. Just maybe..

Found two movies that I wanna watch when released. Told B I'll show him the posters, so here goes! YOU ARE WATCHING WITH ME.

New sandals on Sunday. The thought of new shoes makes all the drama I've been going through almost worth it.

Potato Farm

2011-01-19T22:47:00.002+08:00

I will be super happy if both anna and yuintheng decides to take up the job!
I have nothing much to blog.

Had dinner with Jeremy yesterday, was good catching up. Shall plan another one soon. Ran after work tmr and running again tmr. Life is good.

I facebook photo stalk my boyfriend. HAHA because he doesnt allow me to take pictures of him. Hes so cute. If i could post his baby photo here i would..

The 5 things I will miss.

2011-01-17T22:31:00.002+08:00

Went out with BB for dinner today, super duper full from Astons! BB wanted to buy my sandals from Charles and Keith today but they were out of my size. ITS OKAY, COME TO TAMP!

I think the coming of army has made every minute we spend together more treasured. We are secretly counting down the number of days we have left and every outing becomes more significant, more important. I like it, I feel more treasured.

I asked BB what are the 5 things he would miss most when he goes to army, and he said that it all revolved around me. AWWW ):
I know what i will miss, shall post one today.

I will miss randomly texting him. I always text BB random stuff like what weird stuff the couple opposite me is doing or that I need to pee. He always tells me that he doesnt know how to reply to my random messages but yet he always replies me. Hes replies are predictable but I like that he bothers to entertain me.

and its so awesome that BB passed my two good friend's judging. And they agree that he has a nice voice after hearing him talk on the phone. ISNT IT SO SAD THAT HE DOESNT LIKE TALKING ON THE PHONE. SO I DONT GET TO HEAR HIS VOICE UNLESS I'M CALLING TO ASK WHERE HE IS AND WHERE TO MEET HIM. *HINT* *LESS DOTA MORE PHONE CALLS* HAHAHAHA

okay I'm off to my bed to suffer my 6 mozzie bites and counting down the number of days to army ):

And nothing will change

2011-01-16T22:07:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was the birthday celebration of my 20 year old best friend thang Wenqi! We went shopping in town and had dinner and drinks at timbre.
Sam had to go home but the rest of us went to wenqi's house to play monopoly deal.
Thank you to B for coming and yay you passed Wenqi's judging. Haha photos will be posted when I get them.

Had my long craved ba kut teh with dad today before heading home to do housework while waiting for B to come. Watched a bit of movie, talked and hung out. He was so sweet that I reared. Gosh, I'm overly emotional for my own good. I hate the fact that I cry too easily even though I really really don't want to.
Raina treated me to dinner because she's a rich kid.

People ask if I'll miss B when he goes to army.

Of course I will, but I know this will bring us stronger together. And I rather he be in army than out clubbing and grinding some other girl.

Nice dates

2011-01-12T22:46:00.001+08:00

I miss Anna and yuintheng.

Shall blog since I have nothing to do while waiting for Wenqi to arrive. Was planning to walk to tamp mall but it started raining once I stepped out of the bus stop. Like literally, as if it was all planned. There goes my exercise.
I read an article about how this woman lost 50kg in 4 years. She said that walking long distances helped a lot. Guess who's walking home? :D

I am a blob so I decided to motivate myself into exercising by joining sundown 10km marathon. Haris thought that 10km was very possible to complete until I told him that 10km = 25 rounds around the track.
Managed to con sam into joining! I feel extremely proud of myself. I seriously wonder if it's possible for her to be even thinner after walking 10km. Maybe she'll dissolve.

Work is good, people there are damn nice! I think my colleagues see me as a kid because they keep buying food for me and don't allow me to pay them back.

B for boyfriend, BB for bitchy boyfriend.

Hong kong

2011-01-10T23:58:00.001+08:00

I'm back! Hong kong trip was fruitful. First time buying so much loot back. And the loot actually belongs to me.
Their currency is tiny! Like divide their prices by 5.86? And it's sing price! So I could buy a top for like 15 sing dollars. Spent over 200 sing at h&m. Haha and Ben an Jerry outlets were everywhere.

BUT. people there suckssss. They like to shove their way through without saying anything. And the old women all them fierce! The strength they exert to shove people (Y) an bloody rude cashiers and all. Esprit cashier insisted that my sis cut the queue just because she didn't see her into line.

And they talk really loudly. You can hear people from another side of the train complaining about their dinner or weather etc.

Shopping there was awesome no doubt. But I miss being able to walk about without being pushed or having people smoking outside malls.

2011-01-10T22:42:00.000+08:00

Blogged on my phone but its not uploading! Argh, shall try again later.
Good to be back!

Hong kong

2011-01-07T07:35:00.001+08:00

Flying off soon! See you guys on Monday (:

2011-01-04T21:27:00.002+08:00

Celebrated 9th month with B on monday by eating popeyes! haha and he forgot to bring my present and bird nest.
And work started on monday. Other than waking up early, i dont mind going to work. Oh wait, and no more weekday fun with B ): Awesome food with like 6 canteens and other smaller stores and very nice colleagues!
Its kinda weird to call like 40+ year old women by their names when you usually call them 'auntie'.
Just packed my lunchbox for work tmr and luggage for Hong Kong on friday :D Met nicole for awhile today, we still have a lot to catch up on man.

I'm tired but I feel accomplished.

2010-12-30T22:43:00.002+08:00

Its been a great week.
1) Chalet with my 5N boys was as entertaining as ever.
2) B came back! :D
3) had awesome salad thanks to felicia's mum
4) Dinner with the big family with 3 crabs and other food
5) watched Guliver's Travels and Little Fockers continously.
6) Spent two days with B

And I'm eating creme brulee ice cream now.

2010 ends tmr. 2010 has been a great year, with many great new friends and with current friendships getting stronger. Of course, getting together with B as well. Many mistakes made in 2010 but I regret now for all those mistakes made me the person I am today.
I am looking forward to 2011.

i love you all.

2010-12-27T20:40:00.002+08:00

Spent christmas eve at Wenqi's cousin's house singing along to Timothy playing paramore songs.
Ate fried foooood and stoned and chilled. We got a little retardedly high when the clocked striked twelve.

Christmas was spent with both my dad and Wenqi! Ate buffet at some hotel and then went to look for wenqi at Nex. Her dad then sent us to clarke quay. Was supposed to go to a club? But we ended up at a pub drinking beers and Jägerbomb. When the pub closed we went to Plaza Sing's Starbucks for more beer and chit chatting.
It was by far the most explicit Christmas ever.

I hate beer.

YAY HES COMING HOME TMR :D

2010-12-22T23:41:00.002+08:00

Planned my week packed with activities so I wont miss B! Lets see.
B came over on monday and we watched American Pie and then went to Parkway. Wanted to eat beef noodles but it was all sold out! Ate to our maximum limit with Swensons side dishes and ice cream!

Tuesday, finally met up with my 5N boys who teased me endlessly. Went to Play Nation and played Wii with them. Laughed my ass off seeing all of us move the controllers like some crazy people.
Waited for Johner to finish at training ( mind you his training ends at 10pm ) and ate at Macs because it was the only thing open ):

Went to Gen's house today, it was fun just slacking and watching DVDs and eating tons of good food. Ate ba chor mee and tau huay for lunch, and dinner at gen's house plus icekimo!
I am not that full actually...

BOUGHT A PINT OF CREME BRULEE ICE CREAM HOME FROM ICE CREAM CHEFS. I AM SO HAPPPPPY :DDD
I LOVE ICE CREAM.

My mum is annoying me and I wanna be like jeremy's sister.

Housework kills all.

2010-12-17T22:47:00.002+08:00

I have so much in my head and its all dying to come out and flow into a long wordy post.
Have you ever had that experience, where you had a fantastic day but someone ends up ruining it?
Its like that for me when I come home.

I had a great day today, meeting B to chill and dinner and watching Tron. I was happy and feeling all so warm and bubbly inside.
I come home and...

the nagging begins.
I'm amazed at how housework alters one's mind. It causes the human brain to become like a spoilt tape, where the same segment repeats itself EVERYDAY and sometimes at increasing volume.
Housework causes one to use emotional blackmail on a daily basis.
It goes like " I work so hard for you guys and you cant even do this for me blah blah blah"
Maybe its a Singaporean thing.

I miss school because I get to escape all this nagging by just staring at my notes.

I seriously dont understand why people in my family talks so loudly. Sad to say, my sis is starting to join that clan. I've always been the one in the family to go to the room once I come home and do my own stuff. Read, use comp whatever. I think if given a choice and no one talks to me, I probably wont say anything at home.
And I like it that way.

CAN YOU IMAGINE TALKING LIKE THIS ALL THE TIME. GOSH. HELLO HAVE YOU EATEN DINNER. PUT YOUR CLOTHES IN THE LAUNDRY. WHY NEVER MAKE YOUR BED. TMR WAKE UP HELP TO MAGIC CLEAN. DONT DIRTY THE HOUSE. PACK YOUR TABLE.

@#$%^Y ALIBABAAAAAA.
I promised B I will never be like that ( and no bloody way its in the genes ).
I am coolgirl92, now and forever.

Imma happy pig.

2010-12-16T21:54:00.001+08:00

"Being loved is one thing, to love is another thing, but to be loved by the one you love, well... That's everything."

That's so true isn't it?
Baked with sam today! The cookies we made so damn awesome! :D

Early day Tmr but I'm looking forward to the events after 2. Going to officially break my Dota virginity.

I found something.

2010-12-15T21:48:00.002+08:00

Went out with Theng and Anna on Sunday. Theng, we forgot to buy Anna her music card! Haha bought Anna's birthday present in front of Anna and we just walked around aimlessly. It was good to see them. Lets meet up often okay! <3

And uh, I dont remember what I did for the rest of the week.

OH. Monday. Went to school early to check SGC then went to book air tickets for HK trip in Jan and thennn met the boy who sent me to tuition.
The place was ulu max but I gained another student! Thanks to B who waiting for me (:

Was supposed to go cycling on Tuesday but it was cancelled last minute so went out with B to watch ' Hello Stranger ', which by the way, was one of the nicest Thai romance comedy. Okay fine, its my first Thai romance comedy. We wanted to catch ' Let Me In ' with the free EngWah tickets but they had some retarded terms and conditions which practically narrowed our movie selections to a pathetic number.

I <3 Pasar Malam. So fun to walk about. Found root beer which cost $0.60 a can and Snapple for $0.50. Had dinner with Sam before that and we shopped around for baking ingredients and planners.

Baking tmr and going to PLAY. Not sure if I wanna go though, depends on the highly PMS-sy mum.
I'm going nuts thanks to my mum. YAY to my weekday job which starts in jan! nooooo moreeeeee naggggggggingggggg *standing ovation*

and hello, I know you read my blog.
Just to let you know, I still want the Hello Kitty bra and panties set. Thanks.

We heart Chuck Bass.

2010-12-11T23:05:00.002+08:00

Out with Shumei was good after a day of work ( well 4 hours )
I thought it would be awkward after not seeing each other for more than a year already but nahhhhh.
We ate Subway and caught up with each other and walked around Nex. I will not go to Nex until the hoo-ha about Nex dies down and it becomes less crowded.

Good day, good friend good talk good food. I'm satisfied.

Day out with Yuintheng and Anna tmr, I am loving post A's days.

OH, i decided how to keep myself occupied during the time my boy is in army. Shall work and gym and become the skinny bitch I've always wanted to be.

Mine.

2010-12-10T15:30:00.001+08:00

I'm not the mushy blogger type and neither is Gen Ang right? Haha, I <3 talking to her when I'm bored.
We're currently talking about dung eating beatles.
Yes, dung eating beatles.

I wanna know my best angle.

2010-12-09T21:14:00.005+08:00

I am a hardworking girl because I scanned all the polaroids and uploaded them on facebook. Well, most of them ( i didnt upload those that I look fat in )
So here are the photos! The rest are on facebook.

I wanna go cycling!

Hot girls and guys.

2010-12-08T21:43:00.007+08:00

Prom was good overall though the dinner was horrible. Watching the prom queen and king nominees do all the tasks was pretty entertaining. I think the winners deserved the crowns. Heh, especially our dear Natalie! :D

Everyone looked fantastic and I couldnt recognise many of the girls. It seems like I dont know half the girls there before in my whole two years! The magic of make up. It was a nice official graduation, the last time we see our dear boys with hair.

Gen, Nic, Fela, Marc, Mang Hann, Jeremy, Juzhong, Zac, Haris and I cabbed to Timbre but by the time we reached it was closing ): We were too lazy to cab to some club and squeeze with the rest of the people who came from prom so we just walked to the nearest 24hours Mac and chit chat and slacked.
Even though we seemed over dressed for Macs, I somehow feel like I enjoyed a lot more than going to a club and all ( even though Timbre would have been awesome ). Maybe I'm just not the clubbing crowd type. Surprised?

Nothing much to describe how awesome it felt to see all your friends so dressed up and looking so good so I shall just show you the pictures!

My fave teacher! :D

Dearest marble <3

It was good to be finally as tall as Kexin and Gina! haha and all the guys look so handsome. Awww.
More photos soon! need to upload my polaroids.

Should I stop blogging?

2010-12-06T11:45:00.003+08:00

Shopping everyday kills, no matter how fun shopping can be. I am B-R-O-K-E.
No more shopping, just uh sight seeing.
I need to find cheap activities to pursue, something that I can lose weight doing.

Finally finished shopping for my two dear boys, with jeremy ending the whole shopping trip by buying the most expensive part of his outfit, his shoes.
Now poor J is in deficit.

Its stay home day today, gotta rest my sore muscles before I can move without aching. Shall watch shows all day.
Prom is a drag but I cant wait to see all my friends all pretty and dressed up (:

What movie should I download?
Gonna go for a swim later, am looking forward.

Put a ring on my finger.

2010-12-03T23:41:00.001+08:00

I have no idea why the picture is pink! It's a picture of the helix bridge, and the bridge is blue and all.
So weird.

I had a great day yesterday and today. Out shopping with the boys with lousy stamina and only me and luyen can survive! Haha.

Today was (Y) started off early in the morning with a six course lunch and Narnia! Then we bought NUM slippers and shoes. Gosh, we spent so much today. Then we ate dinner ( well I ate ) and we figured the way to the bridge. The mall attached to the bridge was so high class! Vertu phones, expensive bird nest and all.

I think the boy was enlightened today. Haha so adorable but I felt reassured and safe.
I'm happy (:

Happy pills.

2010-12-01T23:13:00.002+08:00

I need happy pills, I am going crazy with all this shit and emotional blackmail or whatever you call it.
Stop saying all those stuff to make me feel guilty, it doesnt work that way. You just make me want to stray further away.

That particular someone.

2010-12-01T12:34:00.002+08:00

There has always been that particular someone I've always admired and be envious of. Kinda wishing to be like her? To look as good as her, to be as smart as her and just give off that cool amazing aura.

Lets call the person I admired X.
I had many X's in my life, one in primary school, one in secondary school and of course, one in JC. I think I might have many X's in one point of my life when everyone seem so perfect except me. Whoever these X are, they all have the same qualities I have always wished to have.

I honestly thought that I was the only weird one to have such weird ideas but I realised I wasnt the only one. I guess its true that one will never be truly satisfied with themselves, and we will always be wishing to be someone whom we deem to be perfect.

Sometimes I ask myself when I will love myself for everything I am and stop wishing to be someone else. Call it lack of self esteem or whatever. I somehow think that admiring someone is like having a personal goal to work towards, to be a better person and a lesson to love yourself more.

You can totally ignore the above post, was just rambling. Was looking at one of my X's blog. HAHA. I suddenly feel so lesbian.

Alright, time to run errands. I get to see my lovely people tmr!

2010-11-30T21:08:00.002+08:00

I realise that my life is pretty hectic, going out and all but its just that no photos are taken.
Maybe the people I have been hanging out with these few days are camera shy and all.

Mabel, Georgina and Sam came over this morning for a swim and everyone was grateful that I postponed the timing since we all couldnt wake up. Lunched and had ice cream. Manpuku no longer has one for one! ): Went to sign up for my BTT today and met Kexin and Gina and we booked the test on the same day.

Met Wenqi and finally trimmed my hair and cut my fringe PROPERLY.
Why does it keep raining when I wanna go out or go home? In any case, its stay home Wednesday for me tmr with all my shows.

I cant wait for thurs, shopping with my two favourite guys :D

The note in the pill.

2010-11-28T15:53:00.002+08:00

But i'm not afraid of spiders. Haha.

Its officially ends tmr, I cant believe that all the suffering for two years is finally ending. The end to this torture used to see so far away.
I cant wait to go out and shop and hang out with all my favourite people, and disturb him without feeling guilty :D

I hate staying at home. B-O-R-E-D.
I'm so bored that I'm tempted to start playing neopets.

YAY TMRR!
and I can spend more time with my favourite boys and girls.
Undescribable joy.

Oh did I mention that I'm getting new shoes, ear rings and phone cover?
HAHAHAHAHA :D

Rainbows

2010-11-26T13:28:00.001+08:00

I don't like cold wars but it's gonna be over.
Afterall, the bad times makes one appreciate and treasure the good times.

I'm looking forward to tonight. And I miss you.

" ok i promise."

2010-11-25T22:11:00.003+08:00

Do you hear that?
Thats the sound of my sigh from disappointment, sadness and a loss for words.

Its time we JC kids break free.

2010-11-25T15:06:00.002+08:00

Its time we get our social lives back. OH YEAAAAAAH.
Went to town with the girls yesterday to shop. Saw yuintheng, anna and the rest there.
Life is good just the way it is and you are perfect just the way you are.
awww,

My girls are just so pretty ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

I like this pair of sparkly heels. Not very comfy to walk around in though. I salute girls who can shop the whole day in heels.

One last paper to go and more of these fantabulous days. I'm stuck at home today. Dont like staying at home.

I was packing up my table and I read through my organiser/diary. It reminded me of the days when I was a kid and I havent discovered blogging yet. I used to write down how i feel and what happened in the day. I remember writing like 5 pages for one day? And I was only in upper primary or lower sec.
Used to love expressing myself through writing.
I wonder what happened.

Reading what i wrote in my organiser left a smile on my face. The photos that are in them, the random thoughts, the stressful daily tasks, and the random notes i write to express my deepest thoughts.

Ah well, enough of moping around. Bored as hell.

2010-11-24T21:39:00.001+08:00

I really don't know what to name this blog post.

I'll post the photos I look with the girls i'n another blog post.

Currently, I need to figure out what my priorities are. And what yours are. I think we're on different pages.
Maybe I need to readjust and re-prioritize.

Yeah maybe that's what I'll do.

I smell freedom.

2010-11-22T10:13:00.003+08:00

It ends unofficially tmr!!

2010-11-22T10:13:00.001+08:00

Physics kills.

2010-11-17T21:55:00.002+08:00

I wonder why Cambridge puts papers in the afternoon. I dont like afternoon papers.
They waste half a day. If papers were in the morning, I could come home, rest, skype and study.
Afternoon papers just make me dead tired as hell.

As the clock strikes 12 tonight, we'll one day closer to freedom. Doesnt the air smell great?
Time seems to pass so quickly, which i suppose is a good thing. Skyping in the afternoon just makes being home alone on a cold day more bearable.

Had sudden high fever yesterday night which scared the heck out of me. I still remember the news report on the raffles boy who has high fever and didnt see doc in time and became like, idk.
And my dad's good friend's daughter, who has high fever and I think damaged her brain.

I was terrified. I mean, I cant afford a burnt brain like now right?! haha, but its all good now. Being sick didnt feel so bad which so many lovely friends around who not only demanded that i sleep early, drink lots of water etc but also entertained me.

Currently i can hear my mum complaining to someone on the phone about me and meet the parents session. About how useless it is because my teacher says the same thing each time and uh, how busy i am. Oh, and how she doesnt stress me because school is bad enough.
Which is true. She told me to, I quote, " dont study so hard and sleep"

Alright, good luck for the rest of the weird papers. Loves!

I came from the garbage can.

2010-11-15T13:40:00.002+08:00

ITS ENDING TWO MORE WEEKS FROM TODAY!
yay yay yay.
here i come helix bridge!

Been buying a lot of stuff online recently, and i'm becoming poorer everyday. But i like the stuff i buy! :D
I saw this pair of shoes yesterday that were to die for.
But its so expensive. I wonder if anyone would volunteer to buy them for me? *wink wink

I wanna be 170cm. If i were that tall, I wouldnt look this round right. My fats would be like uh, stretched out evenly. Then i'll be skinny like Luyen or mang hann. Or best still, johner.
Nevermind, I will lose weight!

I'm very amused by the caller on skype right now. The caller has significantly reduced my stress level.

Mum just came in to tell me some bad news. Oh man, i hope everyone I love is fine and well ):

love you all!